I went through it for years SHH.
I finally realised two things - one, that at some level I wasn't trying to quit, I was *still* trying to find a way to control my drinking (or at least avoid bad consequences); and two, I was confusing abstinence with control.
I was letting myself be convinced that because I hadn't been drinking for x amount of time that meant I must have control over my appetites and desires now...right?
If you can finally accept that false premise now - and remember it - you'll be a fair way to accepting that the best way for you is no drinking alcohol at all
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