Originally Posted by purpleknight
so Sobriety in my mind definitely does not have a black/white solution
Well, there is no black and white solution for everyone, but I was speaking in terms of that it is black and white
for me. When I say I'm never drinking again, I've had people say to me, "Soberlicious, you can't say that. You have no way of knowing the future." For me, in my life, yes...it is black and white.
Robot, no, I don't think that awareness alone makes me an authentic person. I was well aware of the shitstorm my drinking created for others, but did not stop. I think what made me inauthentic was that my actions did not match my beliefs. What I did do was outwardly try to adapt my beliefs to my actions so that I could continue drinking, but the truth was always known inside me on some level, which is why living inauthentically manifested in anxiety, depression, and fear. Because that incongruency will show itself. It will seep out of the cracks.