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Old 04-03-2005, 02:04 PM
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Grace
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Does it take long???

I have been away from my Abf for almost 3 months now.
Things are going well. I'm healthy and I got another job.

The problem is...I miss him.
Is this self-doubt rising up in me?
I know that I couldn't continue to stay with him.
So, why do I miss him.
I certainly don't miss the abuse, or the neglect, or the drunken rages.
How can I still miss him or is it that I miss having a relationship?

I have been asked out several times, but always by alcoholics.
I don't want to go down that road EVER again.

He told me a couple of months ago that he was going for counseling to deal with his anger. He also said that he was going to start going to church, and was trying to cut down on his drinking.
Because my sister is one of his favorite drinking buddies, I know that he is still drinking and hasn't gone to church yet.

Like I told Former Doormat in her post, I still miss him and sometimes I just want to hear his voice.

Any idea how long this will go on?

Thanks!
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