i too go back normally once a year with my old college football buddies during homecoming and it to is a big drinking fest and party, but to be honest the time that i spend is very blurry do to the fact that i didnt watch the game cause i was more interested on making sure the cooler was empty and cant really remember having spent quality time with my friends cause i was drunk. there were no good conversation, no how is life, no how are the kids. it was all text or messaging later about how crazy we were that weekend or who done what stupid or crap like that. you need to be honest with yourself and decide that if you are ready to stop then your old buddies will be ok with that and realize that your a stronger individual than they are.