Not quite sure why you posted but I'm a real alcoholic and I know you don't have to live that way. I was looking to die when I was active. My only complaint was that it was taking too freaking long to come. I was a respectable functional shell covering a whole bunch of nothing. Sobriety isn't easy but when I die now I won't be dying as a miserable drunk.
Success/failure. A drunk life is a failed attempt and you only get one try at life, so why not try to get a little real success for the time you have left?