OMG that question actually made my stomach turn over. So, my answer is a resounding no way. How awesome is that? I live alone and could easily be drinking this day away, no one would ever know and god- I used to LIVE for those days. Now, it makes me ill to remember the time, the money, the dread, the self-loathing, all of it. I am FREE. Jaynie04 nailed it. I feel like the weight of the world has been taken off of me- and I never, ever want it back. That lil voice has no power over me, for I know what it is, and I know the strength of me.