How great would it be
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How great would it be
To have one cheat day without being accountable. If you could stop time, go on a binge in a cold, dark bar on a hot day, and chug cold beers with a random shot from time to time. Not doing this, it's more of a daydream, but wouldn't it be nice
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Lia i know you don't think nothing by it but you do know there are people here with less than 24h under their belt and your coming out with things like that it is really inappropriate and quite damaging to someone going through early withdrawl/sobriety
Hopefully you will see the error in putting out a post like that
And I never ever want to drink again I don't think about drinking and its very dangerous to think like that
I hate alcohol it disgusts me you couldn't pay me 500 billion to take 1 drink
Scratching my head here
Hopefully you will see the error in putting out a post like that
And I never ever want to drink again I don't think about drinking and its very dangerous to think like that
I hate alcohol it disgusts me you couldn't pay me 500 billion to take 1 drink
Scratching my head here
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Originally Posted by ~Lia~ 
To have one cheat day without being accountable. If you could stop time, go on a binge in a cold, dark bar on a hot day, and chug cold beers with a random shot from time to time. Not doing this, it's more of a daydream, but wouldn't it be nice
I actually tried this - I had a school reunion - I thought - back to not drinking in the morning...I didn't stop again until over 2 years later.
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Originally Posted by ~Lia~
wouldn't it be nice
However, I must confess that I once was where you are now.
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What it would be like for me to drink right now scares me as much as the thought of never drinking again did when I quit. It takes some time to get there but you become far more realistic about the situation and see things for what they were.
Even if you set a bucket full of ice cold beers, my favorite kind, in front of me and told me that no one would ever know it doesn't matter. I would know. That's all I need.
Never going back to that hell hole again.
Even if you set a bucket full of ice cold beers, my favorite kind, in front of me and told me that no one would ever know it doesn't matter. I would know. That's all I need.
Never going back to that hell hole again.
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the problem is there's no happily ever after. here's my version of the end of this particular fairytale:
random conversations with people I won't remember, spending way too much money buying more drinks for myself and friends I might not remember were there, being too loud, talking to much, not really listening to what other people are saying, chain smoking, maybe following random new people whose names I also won't remember to random other bar after all my friends have gone home, more money spent, more drinks, more conversations I won't remember, drunkenly stumbling across town to find a cab (have actually been mugged on one of these occasions before), making the cab stop on the way to pick up more beer, crawling (more like an elephant stampede) into bed, pissing off my partner who has been in bed for ages by waking him up to see if he wants to have a beer with me, having it (and his) by myself when he keeps sleeping, maybe posting or leaving weird comments online, finally passing out, waking up, agony, memory loss, depression, anxiety, heart racing.. 2 days lost. (repeat)
random conversations with people I won't remember, spending way too much money buying more drinks for myself and friends I might not remember were there, being too loud, talking to much, not really listening to what other people are saying, chain smoking, maybe following random new people whose names I also won't remember to random other bar after all my friends have gone home, more money spent, more drinks, more conversations I won't remember, drunkenly stumbling across town to find a cab (have actually been mugged on one of these occasions before), making the cab stop on the way to pick up more beer, crawling (more like an elephant stampede) into bed, pissing off my partner who has been in bed for ages by waking him up to see if he wants to have a beer with me, having it (and his) by myself when he keeps sleeping, maybe posting or leaving weird comments online, finally passing out, waking up, agony, memory loss, depression, anxiety, heart racing.. 2 days lost. (repeat)
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Originally Posted by ~Lia~
To have one cheat day without being accountable. If you could stop time, go on a binge in a cold, dark bar on a hot day, and chug cold beers with a random shot from time to time. Not doing this, it's more of a daydream, but wouldn't it be nice
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How do you go about cutting those feelings off? I want my emotional state to match my cognitive state. It feels like the two are battling it out. I will never drink again, I just want to turn off that little voice
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Lia its that lil voice that's making life bad
People die everyday through continued drinking some don't even see it some do and continue on until the body gives up and shuts down for good all because of alcoholism
Lia its never going to be 1 drink as how could it be if there is zero control and you will always want more
Check out the secular section on the forum for lots of help on that lil voice
And were always here its just we have realised its never going to be just 1
Check out the forum for a broad perspective I wish you all the best in addressing your alcoholism
People die everyday through continued drinking some don't even see it some do and continue on until the body gives up and shuts down for good all because of alcoholism
Lia its never going to be 1 drink as how could it be if there is zero control and you will always want more
Check out the secular section on the forum for lots of help on that lil voice
And were always here its just we have realised its never going to be just 1
Check out the forum for a broad perspective I wish you all the best in addressing your alcoholism
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The longer you are sober the less loud that voice is….the thought might come up but I don't linger on it. And they come up less and less.
You asked how to quiet that voice? I think of sobriety as a gift. I really don't mean to be corny. As an alcoholic I have what I believe to be a terminal condition. There is no cure but I have everything I need to arrest the process.
That glass of white on a bar? For me it is an illusion. Because I immediately begin to think "what about the next glass". We call it thinking the drink through. Yeah, most of us have had nights where we didn't end up passed out or blacked out. But EVERYTIME I was drinking at the end I was rolling the dice and leaving it up to chance. That is pure craziness.
There was a thread a few days ago about how freeing sobriety is. All the scheming, and covering up, lying, shame…..it is gone. I can toss my bags in the car for a weekend trip and not worry about bottles clanging. I don't wait for school pickup so I can come home and drink. I don't sit at dinner parties eyeing people's glasses to make sure I am pacing myself. Ugh, ugh, ugh.
It took time and distance to be able to look back and see how I was absolutely in a chokehold due to alcohol. I thought I couldn't live without it.
If i could have a night completely free to drink with no consequences I wouldn't do it. I don't miss feeling spaced out and fuzzy. One or two hours of feeling mellow is not worth feeling like crap for 18 hours the next day.
I also feel strongly that I drew a line in the sand and said NO MORE. I feel very protective and proud of my sobriety. The fact that I am able to continue means every night I go to bed sober I have accomplished a major feat. I feel lucky to be among others who care about sobriety too.
Sobriety is a small price to pay for the openness it has brought into my life. My world had telescoped down gradually. This past year I have felt like a new leaf unfurling. Keep reaching out…I think communicating your thoughts helps keep that voice at bay.
You asked how to quiet that voice? I think of sobriety as a gift. I really don't mean to be corny. As an alcoholic I have what I believe to be a terminal condition. There is no cure but I have everything I need to arrest the process.
That glass of white on a bar? For me it is an illusion. Because I immediately begin to think "what about the next glass". We call it thinking the drink through. Yeah, most of us have had nights where we didn't end up passed out or blacked out. But EVERYTIME I was drinking at the end I was rolling the dice and leaving it up to chance. That is pure craziness.
There was a thread a few days ago about how freeing sobriety is. All the scheming, and covering up, lying, shame…..it is gone. I can toss my bags in the car for a weekend trip and not worry about bottles clanging. I don't wait for school pickup so I can come home and drink. I don't sit at dinner parties eyeing people's glasses to make sure I am pacing myself. Ugh, ugh, ugh.
It took time and distance to be able to look back and see how I was absolutely in a chokehold due to alcohol. I thought I couldn't live without it.
If i could have a night completely free to drink with no consequences I wouldn't do it. I don't miss feeling spaced out and fuzzy. One or two hours of feeling mellow is not worth feeling like crap for 18 hours the next day.
I also feel strongly that I drew a line in the sand and said NO MORE. I feel very protective and proud of my sobriety. The fact that I am able to continue means every night I go to bed sober I have accomplished a major feat. I feel lucky to be among others who care about sobriety too.
Sobriety is a small price to pay for the openness it has brought into my life. My world had telescoped down gradually. This past year I have felt like a new leaf unfurling. Keep reaching out…I think communicating your thoughts helps keep that voice at bay.
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Originally Posted by jaynie04
The longer you are sober the less loud that voice is….the thought might come up but I don't linger on it. And they come up less and less.
You asked how to quiet that voice? I think of sobriety as a gift. I really don't mean to be corny. As an alcoholic I have what I believe to be a terminal condition. There is no cure but I have everything I need to arrest the process.
That glass of white on a bar? For me it is an illusion. Because I immediately begin to think "what about the next glass". We call it thinking the drink through. Yeah, most of us have had nights where we didn't end up passed out or blacked out. But EVERYTIME I was drinking at the end I was rolling the dice and leaving it up to chance. That is pure craziness.
There was a thread a few days ago about how freeing sobriety is. All the scheming, and covering up, lying, shame…..it is gone. I can toss my bags in the car for a weekend trip and not worry about bottles clanging. I don't wait for school pickup so I can come home and drink. I don't sit at dinner parties eyeing people's glasses to make sure I am pacing myself. Ugh, ugh, ugh.
It took time and distance to be able to look back and see how I was absolutely in a chokehold due to alcohol. I thought I couldn't live without it.
If i could have a night completely free to drink with no consequences I wouldn't do it. I don't miss feeling spaced out and fuzzy. One or two hours of feeling mellow is not worth feeling like crap for 18 hours the next day.
I also feel strongly that I drew a line in the sand and said NO MORE. I feel very protective and proud of my sobriety. The fact that I am able to continue means every night I go to bed sober I have accomplished a major feat. I feel lucky to be among others who care about sobriety too.
Sobriety is a small price to pay for the openness it has brought into my life. My world had telescoped down gradually. This past year I have felt like a new leaf unfurling. Keep reaching out…I think communicating your thoughts helps keep that voice at bay.
You asked how to quiet that voice? I think of sobriety as a gift. I really don't mean to be corny. As an alcoholic I have what I believe to be a terminal condition. There is no cure but I have everything I need to arrest the process.
That glass of white on a bar? For me it is an illusion. Because I immediately begin to think "what about the next glass". We call it thinking the drink through. Yeah, most of us have had nights where we didn't end up passed out or blacked out. But EVERYTIME I was drinking at the end I was rolling the dice and leaving it up to chance. That is pure craziness.
There was a thread a few days ago about how freeing sobriety is. All the scheming, and covering up, lying, shame…..it is gone. I can toss my bags in the car for a weekend trip and not worry about bottles clanging. I don't wait for school pickup so I can come home and drink. I don't sit at dinner parties eyeing people's glasses to make sure I am pacing myself. Ugh, ugh, ugh.
It took time and distance to be able to look back and see how I was absolutely in a chokehold due to alcohol. I thought I couldn't live without it.
If i could have a night completely free to drink with no consequences I wouldn't do it. I don't miss feeling spaced out and fuzzy. One or two hours of feeling mellow is not worth feeling like crap for 18 hours the next day.
I also feel strongly that I drew a line in the sand and said NO MORE. I feel very protective and proud of my sobriety. The fact that I am able to continue means every night I go to bed sober I have accomplished a major feat. I feel lucky to be among others who care about sobriety too.
Sobriety is a small price to pay for the openness it has brought into my life. My world had telescoped down gradually. This past year I have felt like a new leaf unfurling. Keep reaching out…I think communicating your thoughts helps keep that voice at bay.
Thank you Janie, awesome post
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