Forabetterlife : I use to resent not being able to drink but now That I have accepted that I am a functioning alcoholic, giving up has become slightly easier.
When my AV screams at me, I am more angry with my addiction as I absolutely LOVE being sober. It's a battle as you say but it's so worth it.
It's 5.30 pm and In the past I would have consume nearly a bottle of wine by now. I would have crashed out on the sofa for an hour and then woken up feeling horrible, lost, suicidal, depressed, ill, fuzzy, angry, confused, teary.
But not this Sunday. I am calm and have a lot of inner peace. And I am so proud of myself that I could cry. You can't beat this feeing of self worth. You just can't.
Have a lovely Sunday everyone