Class of August 2014 Part 4
Hey all. Hope everyone is holding tight. Spent my day doing chores and reading. Rains moved in for this evening and most of tomorrow. Need to hit up the Red Box for some good flicks. And with my recovery books, Ive got plenty to keep me busy. Cant believe only 1 more day in this month! So glad to be a part of team August. I think we all are a pretty good group. Enjoy the rest of the weekend team. Be checking in tomorrow.
Thanks Cristina & forabetterlife ,
Well, am lying in bed and have not given in to the av, am so pleased with myself. Found tonight really hard for some reason, had a ball of anxiety in my stomach all evening. I kept feeling really resentful of all those people who can drink with no problems. I was even jealous of the characters in coronation street ( a British soap for all who are not from here!), how ridiculous us that.
Strange that so many of us are struggling tonight, am hoping we all feel proud of ourselves when we wake up tomorrow with no guilt or hangover xx
Well, am lying in bed and have not given in to the av, am so pleased with myself. Found tonight really hard for some reason, had a ball of anxiety in my stomach all evening. I kept feeling really resentful of all those people who can drink with no problems. I was even jealous of the characters in coronation street ( a British soap for all who are not from here!), how ridiculous us that.
Strange that so many of us are struggling tonight, am hoping we all feel proud of ourselves when we wake up tomorrow with no guilt or hangover xx
Welcome back Hope, it's never too late to start over.
Sounds like today was rough for many of us. I planned to drink tonite. I just decided it and things worked out that it would be really easy to go to the store by myself and my daughter has friend over so it would be super easy to sneak sips in the bedroom. In the parking lot, I came on this thread and read all of your posts. I knew that if I drank, even just a couple, I would disappear quietly from this group and the whole cycle would start again. I read about some of you struggling just like me and realized that I'm not alone and it really made a difference. I cried and thought of waking up tomorrow and of how hard I've been fighting for 10 days. I feel good, I look good. I want to stay this way and keep getting better.
Sorry this was long , I know it's just one day but the fact that I was all set to do it and rather than just going on autopilot, I decided against it. Huge for me. My house is clean, my conscious is clear, and I am so glad and relieved that I will be going to bed sober and waking up on day 11 not day 1.
We can get through this weekend guys. Ride out the cravings. They will pass and sober life will go on Each time we beat it makes us stronger.
Sounds like today was rough for many of us. I planned to drink tonite. I just decided it and things worked out that it would be really easy to go to the store by myself and my daughter has friend over so it would be super easy to sneak sips in the bedroom. In the parking lot, I came on this thread and read all of your posts. I knew that if I drank, even just a couple, I would disappear quietly from this group and the whole cycle would start again. I read about some of you struggling just like me and realized that I'm not alone and it really made a difference. I cried and thought of waking up tomorrow and of how hard I've been fighting for 10 days. I feel good, I look good. I want to stay this way and keep getting better.
Sorry this was long , I know it's just one day but the fact that I was all set to do it and rather than just going on autopilot, I decided against it. Huge for me. My house is clean, my conscious is clear, and I am so glad and relieved that I will be going to bed sober and waking up on day 11 not day 1.
We can get through this weekend guys. Ride out the cravings. They will pass and sober life will go on Each time we beat it makes us stronger.
Betterlife, I completely understand. That is the cycle, feel better and then the AV wants to trick you and take you down again. Great job on pausing and thinking it through. We joined this site for a reason. Glad all the posts helped.
There is beer in my house and I paused to read everyone's posts several times too. It made me remember that alcohol is not my friend, never was and never will be. I know it comes out of nowhere that freakin AV, but we now have the August Army to help us knock it back down to its true size! Just realized that is AA abbreviated. Too cool.
Remember, don't let anything in your body that wants to kill you! That AV is stranger danger! Love and hugs. Sober and proud of it. See you in the AM!
There is beer in my house and I paused to read everyone's posts several times too. It made me remember that alcohol is not my friend, never was and never will be. I know it comes out of nowhere that freakin AV, but we now have the August Army to help us knock it back down to its true size! Just realized that is AA abbreviated. Too cool.
Remember, don't let anything in your body that wants to kill you! That AV is stranger danger! Love and hugs. Sober and proud of it. See you in the AM!
Well all, it's day 7 and my AV is acting up. I spent most of the day at home with Family, and these are the days that I would typically drink (weekend at home). I figured I'd catch up on how everyone was doing and post.
Forabetterlife: I'm glad that you didn't give in!!!!
I'm not going to drink tonight no matter what!
Forabetterlife: I'm glad that you didn't give in!!!!
I'm not going to drink tonight no matter what!
forabetterlife. way to go. kickin a$$!!
i did good today. went out to the river and stuck w my sparkling water. hubby stopped on the way there for beer. i went in and picked up a couple of snapples instead. wouldve been real easy to come home n drink as the stepkids were there and it was a bit uncomfortable. 20 yr old daughter barely said hello to me. 13 year old son was a smarta$$ the whole day. to the point i walked away and ignored him the rest of the day. but i got home, showered, popped open a diet soda and turned on netflix. its now 9pm and i am sober, tired, and going to bed.
i hope you guys are doing well and being strong. if not then dont worry... just come back here and start this thing over. keep trying.
i did good today. went out to the river and stuck w my sparkling water. hubby stopped on the way there for beer. i went in and picked up a couple of snapples instead. wouldve been real easy to come home n drink as the stepkids were there and it was a bit uncomfortable. 20 yr old daughter barely said hello to me. 13 year old son was a smarta$$ the whole day. to the point i walked away and ignored him the rest of the day. but i got home, showered, popped open a diet soda and turned on netflix. its now 9pm and i am sober, tired, and going to bed.
i hope you guys are doing well and being strong. if not then dont worry... just come back here and start this thing over. keep trying.
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