hey SC...
you don't need to choose a label in order to decide that what drinking is doing to you isn't what you want for your life. I still struggle with the label "alcoholic" for a lot of reasons. I use it when I'm at AA meetings, but I often don't really identify with it. I prefer to think of myself as a person who has decided that life is richer, fuller and more joyous without alcohol.
Your patterns - regardless of what you call them - are impacting your life in a very negative way. Your patterns are essentially the same patterns I had at 23. Suffice to say I never "got it out of my system". I just continued on like that until my 40's. I DID get DUI's. I lost money, marriages, and precious time off my life.
I hope you can take hold of a strong choice for sobriety and see how much better your life will be without this burden of booze.
We're here for ya!
Welcome.
