I agree that alcohol was my dumb way of "livening things up" when life got tough or boring. Now I know it only made things better for that first drink; anything past that was superfluous and then just plain bad.
I am with you in the recent realization that sometimes life is just hard. Or boring. Or meh. Or sad. And sometimes life is really good, and happy, and enjoyable. We take the good with the bad. Taking the good and avoiding the bad is not a very grown up thing to do, eh?
Good thoughts, Nuu. Here's to a better week!