I've felt suicidal during binges. Never attempted, but thought about it many times. So glad you didn't go through with it, and are here to post! Well done on reaching out!
My mom committed suicide. It's hard to wrap my head around it. The story is a tragic one.
Go on and live your life, without the alcohol... I've learned to appreciate the sunrise, the sunset, and even the space in between
Each day truly is some sort of a gift. Even the bad days. Because there's always going to be a good day to come along to break up the bad days