Hi try
I know what it is like if it wasn't for my next door neighbour calling the fire brigade and them coming when they did (they had to kick front door in) I would be dead also
Do you know what I done that night I went out and got drunk burnt to pieces and completely insane I was lost blaming everyone
One day thank god or me or whatever i woke up I was scared frightened vomiting Iwas crying my eyes out i had finally realised I was truly lost and it was in that moment that i found a raw hatred for alcohol and it has never went away
I'm not saying its going to be easy but it sounds like your do anything to be sober just like me and everybody else here
I think your doing amazing for what its worth