I gather from the post that you DID relapse... I have to tell you I completely understand your position. I'd been sober for only a week after my first withdrawal when today out of nowhere, after college, I just had this really sudden urge to have a drink. I bought it and didn't even drink right away; I thought that was a good sign. But I did end up drinking and getting drunk enough (as I'm typing this). To be honest, I think you and I have to understand that we DON'T need the alcohol to keep going. That willpower, just as the willpower to drink, is within us. Guide it in the right direction.
Sober for -1 days. Tomorrow will be 0 again...