LOL....Butterfly.....you just did a written version of what I call the "wailing wall"...I believe I have described such "wall" to you before.
Screaming it all out loud...very loud has always been a tremendous release for me. It discharges the negative energy from your body and mind.
Writing can also be helpful.
Did you ever read co-dependent no more? This is helpful to almost everyone who reads it. It sure was for me!
Congrats of the 6 days NO Contact. It is working like a charm for you. Keep it up!!!!!!!
dandylion