I know what it feels like to be in the middle of a bender and not seeing any way out. It's a hopeless and frightening place to be.
Sometimes a change in environment can be very helpful. Do you have any sober friends or family that you could stay with for a while? If not, is treatment a possibility or at least detox for a week?
If you think going to AA meetings and getting support there would be enough, great, but I know for me, when I was binge drinking, I was in no shape physically or emotionally to even get to a meeting. That I did later after I was capable of doing it after a lot of both in-patient and out-patient help. It's different for everybody.
For me, I had to get out of where I was living and be somewhere where I felt supported and safe.
It takes a lot of determination and strength to get out of the black hole your in, but it can be done!!!!
I hope you find something that works for you. Good Luck