Originally Posted by
Mrrryah1 
So lost. Can't stop relapsing. Been on a bender and trying to get sober today. I can't even describe the anguish and pain I'm experiencing at this moment. Life looks really bleak. I don't think I will ever be able to stay sober. Today yes. Tomorrow maybe. But a week or month from now likely not. I wish I could just escape this life for good. Can't do this anymore.
Benders are no fun. It's hard to think clearly or see the forest through the trees when we are in them. Work on staying sober today, then tomorrow work on it tomorrow. With more sober time, you will have a different perspective on staying sober long-term.