23 yrs ago when I reach a point in my
life at 30 yrs.old, I was tired. Sick and
Tired of everything at that time in my
young life. I was happy as a mom with
2 little adorable children, because that
was all I wanted to do. However, I was
so unhappy in my marriage of about 7yrs.
and that I wasn't getting what I emotionally
needed from my spouse.
I drank to escape and don't think I could
have remained sober on my own for any
long period of time because of my unhappiness.
It took family to get me into recovery first
to find out my mental state because I was
ready to call it quits on life itself. I just wanted
to sleep. To catch up on sleep because I was
so tired.
Once I was evaluated on my mind, I was given
a green light to move forward on tackling my
addiction to alcohol. I was in fact relieved that
that was the culprit. All I needed to do was learn
about addiction fully and how it affected my mind,
my emotions, all areas of my life. Including my
place in my marriage and as a mom.
I learned as much as my mind could absorb
those first 28 days in rehab and was given
some important recovery tools consisting of
steps and principles to incorporate in my everyday
affairs.
Once alcohol was removed from my home so
that the temptation to reach for it wasn't there,
I began to work my program as taught to me
over a long period of many one days at a time.
Recovery is a journey in life, building, changing,
learning, applying what I continue to learn from
others in recovery like I and doing maintenanace
where needed to live a healthy, happy, honest
life.
I remain teachable and willing to do whatever
I need to do to achieve a better quality of life
more so than the one I was living before I entered
recovery 23 yrs ago.
A good reminder for myself is that if I ever
need help, I always know who to call upon,
where to go for help and never have to go
thru anything alone by myself again. To me,
that is extremely comforting as I continue
on my recovery journey sober.
You can too.
