Ugh.
So lost. Can't stop relapsing. Been on a bender and trying to get sober today. I can't even describe the anguish and pain I'm experiencing at this moment. Life looks really bleak. I don't think I will ever be able to stay sober. Today yes. Tomorrow maybe. But a week or month from now likely not. I wish I could just escape this life for good. Can't do this anymore.