Hi and welcome.
If it makes you feel any better your far from being alone with your feelings.
The requirements to get AND stay sober are not that many. First we don’t pick up that first drink so we don’t have to try to get sober AGAIN. Then we get honest with our self about our own drinking. Next we accept without question that if we are alcoholic we can not drink in safety. Somewhere in there we add that we really don’t want to drink.
I personally got very into AA to get and stay sober for a long tike.
Reading and doing suggestions posted on this forum is a great help also, along with changing our drinking routines as well.
BE WELL