After my last (and I mean LAST) relapse, I high tailed it back to my group which I hadn't seen in a looooong time and fessed right up. That accountability made the difference.
Here's my thought: IF you needed dialysis, would you ever miss your Dr's appt? Nope. Think of AA as your Dr's appt. Go, even when you don't feel like it. Go, even when "you GOT this!" Go! Check in with them on a regular basis. I go 3 times a week. . .just like I would go in for my dialysis.
And, Mera. . .I love how you think about using food as our pharmacy. Food can do wonderful things.
Keep on hanging with us. Together we can do this.