I hate summer.
Ok, I'm 18 months sober and most of the time I have no problems with being sober. Lately tho , I've been feeling so alone. It saddens me. I've been comparing past summers to my new sober summers and I must say my sober summers are really dull now.
I feel like no one wants me around bc I'm sober. I don't get invites to go anywhere any more. I was really hurt when I didn't get invited to my friends birthday party. I don't drink anymore but I could have gone to wish her a happy birthday but I'm just constantly overlooked and I'm not used to it at all!!! It's so hard trying to be happy and have fun when no one is around to be happy with . I have my bf but it would be nice to have some freaking friends back in my life .
I don't want to drink ever again but sometimes I feel like being sober isn't worth being lonely. Ugh I haven't felt like this is such a long time. I can't wait for it to go away . Sick of it .