Hey Mac.
Good on you for initially getting sober for 4 months.
That is quite an accomplishment.
Now, that you are sober again, be patient and loving to yourself.
The counselor at rehab doesn't have the right to speak to you in that way.
Unfortunately, rehab has a huge failure rate.
It seems like rehab and 12 step programs say the same thing,
'If you stay sober, it's because of the program. If you drink, it's
because you failed.' That philosophy is garbage.
Take care of yourself and really watch people in your 12 step meetings
before you reach out for help. What I mean by watch them is,
Listen to how they speak at meetings and observe what
they do outside. Then, you can figure out who to ask.
Be good to yourself. You're worth it. Thanks for sharing
Your experience. Good luck!