An alcoholic bartender
Hi all,
I am an alcoholic working (alone) in a bar 3 nights a week. Today is hopefully my first day sober, but I'm worried about what will happen when I go to work tonight. Usually the first thing I do when I come to work is pouring me a beer. Then I will drink another one, and another one. Unless the place gets packed with people and I don't have time to drink, I will usually be drinking all night. I don't get wasted since I am working and it is illegal. But I drink just so much that I can still function normally (or close to normally), and then I binge drink when I'm closed.
I have said to myself a trillion times that "tonight I am not going to drink", but I always fail.
I don't keep alcohol in the house, so I don't get tempted here, but at work there is alcohol everywhere! I really don't know how to tell myself the right things when I get tempted.
Reading on this forum (I haven't been here before) is a great motivation, though.
(sorry if my english is bad, it's not my first language)