I completely agree
I should have been able to work and drink, I didn't though, I still don't know why to this day, a mix of 24 beers a night, no motivation, shame, and anxiety
For the first 6 months of my sobriety I was the same, but now a year into my sobriety all my motivation to do something with my is back, and then it's like...wow...but, I'm 30 and I've never worked a day in my life because I pissed it all away drinking and watching netflix alone...and I'm sure a TON of people are worse off than me, it's just so embarrassing to deal with