Butterfly, I remember going swimming with my friend at her swim club a few summers back. Every song that came on reminded me of him and I layed in the sun with tears streaming down my face. I was compelled to call him and he was cold and distant. If I wouldn't have gone thru times like that I wouldn't be in a healthier state of mind today. It took me a long time but the healing you do in that time is worth it. You are getting there. I always see where I used to be in your posts. I also see how far you have come. You are on a journey to a better life for yourself. There will be bumps along the way but it's how we grow and change and adjust our sails.
