Hi Longoverdue.
I wish so much good luck and strength to you. I am been saying all the same things to myself for decades. I am on my third serious try-only day 15 now. 30 days once and 37 days once. This time I hope to be in it for the long haul. I am 58 now and feel like I have wasted so many days and opportunities for the buzz. There is a person I a want to finally get to know: sober me.