Thank you all... I did not respond.. It was a rough night but I pulled through.. Thank you for reminding me the importance on giving this time... It's so much easier to just jump back in, but if you do that cycle, the ride never ends.. I just can't believe how strong this disease really is.. His and Mine.. I'm addicted just as well.. I've really been working my Alanon program, using all my tools, praying and reaching out.. I have to remind myself every minute that I deserve better.. Thank you for believing that too... xoxox