Got drunk last night
I thought drinking would make me feel better about my lack of having a job, and the way my fathers attitude toward me has made me feel. Lately his attitude is quite negative towards me and it makes me feel so bad deep inside. I also have a lot of anxiety over finding a job and the thought of going to interviews just makes it worse.
Now I cant sleep. I'm going to get a lecture from my folks in the morning and it makes me feel so ashamed. My whole situation makes me feel like drinking more but I cannot do that.