Day 9, got through a bunch of "easy" days in part because I wasn't around alcohol. Going back to work tomorrow then have vacation next week with a lot of time at home, which I'm a bit nervous about.
It is becoming apparent to me how much my surroundings trigger old habits and patterns. My ego doesnt want to always admit it though.
I've also found myself a bit short tempered and my thoughts lately tend to be rambling, jumping from idea to idea. Drinking always seemed to dull things, i didn't care about things as much or get upset as easily and it slowed down my thinking. Drinking eventually led to some mean and dark places,. I would drink past mellow and happy to become beligerant and verbally abusive at times.
Learning how to function sober, dealing with anger/stress and just being in my own skin has been an experience in itself. I'm loving it though. The lows are never as low as waking up out of a blackout or drinking binge. The highs are real, not chemical and I can remember them.