Hi inthekeyofg!
Thank you very much for your commentary. I am sorry to hear of your heartbreak. Honestly, a lot of the reason i turned to alcohol had to do with being heartbroken over romantic situations. Over and over again! So I get you.
I think there is a difference between acknowledging feeling upset about not having a relationship and actively seeking one. I don't think at any point i said i am trying to get into a relationship,and i especially never said i was going to show up at AA with that goal. I was simply expressing feeling sad about being the only single person i know. Recognizing that this is a big part of my abuse of alcohol is part of my recovery.
Anyway, I agree the loneliness is better than the pain of being in a bad relationship. I hope that sobriety will give me an opportunity to look at the mistakes of my past so when i am ready for a relationship again, it will be a constructive, supportive one. Inthekeyofg, i hope the same for you!