Thanks, Clementina,
I like the thought of having the decision remade for me. I know that in the past I have always known when I was going to lose my sobriety. I'd have few weeks and just wake up knowing one day that I wasn't going to make it another. I need to build in defenses to that impulse.
I never regret not drinking. I always regret drinking after I come out of a binge. I wish that thinking was enough to keep it away.