Hello everyone,
I am an alcoholic and I know it. Today is day 1. I have to stop this cycle or I will certainly and slowly kill myself. I am motivated to stop but horribly afraid that I will lose myself after a few weeks. That is my pattern. I eventually forget how I feel today and relapse. But I know it has to end and that I have to stop.
I am hopeful that by using these forums I can have a tool that will help me stay sober. I want it so much (until I don't of course).
In any event, thanks for listening.