Thanks Jeni.
My co-workers know about my depression and anxiety, but not about the fact that I am an alcoholic.
The girl that is filling in for me is very young, inexperienced, and does not like the job. But she is the only one who knows part of what needs to be done. I have since been assigned a new assistant to take her place, but the training had just started before I was put on leave. She will do just fine. Yes, I will be overwhelmed and fixing things for quite some time. Just sets off my OCD and yes, I do get angry. Working with my therapist on that one......I guess I will need to just break things down and do what I can at first.
I really do like my job and all of the challenges. There is just no support from my GM, which makes it a little difficult to handle at times. Not used to making so many decisions on my own.
Sorry, I'm rambling. Thanks for your support and for listening. And yes, I totally agree with you...drinking will not make it go away...