Do you know he is happy? Do you know they are banning around the house all day talking lovey dovey or is that what you have told yourself? It's always easy to imagine everyone else having the 'perfect' life, love, night, job. But the reality of most of us is we are never truly 100% happy. There is always something, that is upsetting us. If your x is an A he truly isn't happy. He wouldn't be blocking out life with booze if he was.
Try to look at what is good about your life. Your son, your amazing job at improving yourself, your ability to be a good Mum! There would be some wonderful things about your life if you look. Please tell me some I would love to hear them. X