Aww sweetie...I just spent some time reading old posts of mine from 2007 only moments ago. I spent a good while here back then...relapsed. I was here awhile last year...and left.
I have fallen 3 or 4 times since May trying to get back on this horse.
(And holy moly..I don't wanna scare newcomers here...but some of us struggle harder than others...of which I am one. Real slow learner in this respect).
Get back on the horse. I want sobriety more and more and more...especially after my last fall.
It is what I want and NEED most of all. It has to be my everything. Sobriety is the passage I MUST take to make my life the one I KNOW it can be.
I am humbler today than I think I ever, ever have been. I have been full of bluster and determination before...thinking I will never drink again.
Sobriety is a gift...one I receive and have to earn everyday. Every darn day.
Saddle up.