You can learn a great deal from this, zombiegirl. It's fine to be a nondrinker. The great thing is that you solidified your knowledge of a great truth in your life. Keep that close to your heart. When in doubt, hold this truth up to the light and let it shine in your life. Since I have come to accept that I simply cannot and will not drink, I have felt liberated. There is a great freedom in being true and honest to yourself.
Remember that this discomfort will pass. *hugs*