Yeah I kind of feel the same way as purpleknight. If you have been a heavy drinker for 5 years isn't that enough time to realize that while it may be possible to moderate... It's not worth it? When I realized that I could moderate pretty well, but it wasn't worth it... that's when I quit. Moderating sucks, your not getting drunk all the time, but your also not sober. I'd rather just be drunk all the time or be sober. I did the drunk all the time thing for awhile, now I'm doing the sober thing for awhile, both are pretty good for different reasons, but moderating...just sucks... you don't get any benefits of long term sobriety and you're not drinking as much as you would like... ugh