Originally Posted by
coastalgirl 
Sober for three days, confused, upset with myself, asking why my mind is going crazy with the desire to stop AND the desire to continue drinking. Where's the fun, and truly guys, WHERE is the fun without alcohol? I used to know. Now I can't find it and feel like I never will. What about the next 10 weddings I go to? Get togethers with friends? Date night with my husband?!
Don't take how you feel at three days sober and use to imagine what a lifetime of sobriety will be like. It isn't the drab, funless existence you fear it to be, or no one would recovery.
It's understandable that you grieve a life without alcohol days after you quit...that's the way your addiction lures you back in. Focus on not drinking for the next couple of week while your mind and body heals. Then start filling your life with the abundance that being alcohol free provides.