Thank you for all the feedback. I'm simply looking for a program that works for me and not the one program fits all that I've experienced in AA. I've been in it since 01/2012 so it's all I've known. I think AA is great and I've seen it do wonders for others but it leads me to feel like I'm living a life that I don't want and is not my own. I've worked the steps and been through the big book and although I do enjoy the fellowship I don't enjoy the thought process. I'm not able to keep myself sober this way. I'm not resentful, at least I don't feel resentful towards AA, I just would like to hear what others have done.
I just know there are other options and wanted to hear from a broader audiance who have gone a different route.
Thank you so much for all the input and I welcome any further comments.