In my opinion, I feel like you are setting yourself up for a relapse. I say this as you are saying that if you relapse you can learn from this experience. Don't let it fool you the number of people on this site that have relapsed and said that they have learned from it. Yes they have learned from it BUT they were lucky enough to come back to say that. Sooooooooooooo many people don't come back. It is sad when they don't return
Many haven't. You just haven't been around here long enough to know that yet.