This weekend feels like 'it' to me. My husband went on a huge binge on Friday night. I did not and stayed at home. He was sick all weekend and said that will be 'it' for him for a long time. Maybe that was a blessing in disguise because it will make it easier for me. I cant explain it but real recovery feels 'close'. I know that sounds weird. I'm so much better than I was. I just need that one last step to be done for good.