Originally Posted by
Confused39 
I have suddenly realised I'm on my own I know that sounds strange as I have been separated from my AH for 3 months but tonight I realised I have no one to spend my nights with or go anywhere with. This came about as I had agreed that my son could have friends over to celebrate the end of their exams and have a party and I would go out for a few hours. He asked me tonight if he could have his party next Saturday night so I agreed. It was at this point I realised I had no where to go for a few hours on a Saturday night. I don't have a lot of friends, a few close ones but not lots but here's the thing 2 of these friends are on holidays and my other friend is heavily pregnant and doesn't see past 8pm at night. I don't have a lot of family support and certainly no family member I'd want to spend 5 minutes with never mind a few hours!! It is occasions like this that I think my H should be here at home not out drinking and thinking only of himself he is supposed to be at home with me and his kids. Actually I think this everyday I shouldn't be on my own!! I always thought he would be here with me I believed him when he made promises and told he he was in love with me. I hate feeling so alone and pathetic.
You are not pathetic. I only have a few close friends also. What's important is that you have healthy good relationships with the friends you do have. You could be in a relationship with someone and feel more alone then when your single. Ive been single for almost 4 years I was in 2 mentally draining relationships that I stayed in for a long time because I didn't want to be lonely. I could of saved myself a lot of heartbreak if I left sooner then when I did. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being single. Take care of yourself, you really don't need to be with someone to feel happier or to feel fulfilled.