Just Need Support
As always, my problem has to do with my AH and spending. Yes, I'm trying to leave and it's taking me way to long but I have my own emotional issues I'm working on that have kept me stuck.
Once again it's my AH's spending. I questioned him about one of the items he was buying trying to get an exact idea of what he spent and he got angry at my asking but of course he's already put a deposit down and is telling me after the fact. And he expects me to keep covering the expenses and after just getting a rough idea of what he spent today, I'm having trouble even moving from shock. Just sitting here in a depressed huddle.
Need someone to kick me along the path.
Really overwhelmed at the moment by this and of course dumb me, I told him I'd try to cover the checks and all of a sudden he was saying I love you babe.
I know what's right in front of my eyes but I'm stuck and I spend the day beating myself up for being so dumb.
I don't even know how to push myself forward any longer. I'm just overwhelmed.
I've fallen into the pit of craziness and having a hard time crawling out.