more excuses:
Thanks for you advise, but if it was that easy, there would be no problem.
I don't do some things I think might be fun, but I would be going alone, and would feel out of place.
I am not as willing as I've been in the to help people, because I've been burned so many times before and their unwillingness to help me when I need it.
what to do about it:
get to meetings. go to different meetigs. don't listening for differences and start listening for similarities. mention you want a sponsor and are willing to go to any lengths. read the big book and do what it says.
what it took?
I had to want what the program had to offer. I found out what the program had to offer by reading the big book over and over and listening at meetings.
I had to be willing to go to any lengths.
a hard a** sponsor that called me on my BS, keptycallin me on my BS until I saw it, then guided me though the steps to find the root cause of my problems, then the solution.
honesty( which my sponsor helped me tremendously with by callin me on my BS), openmindedness( shuttin up and listening), and willingness(H.O.W. it works), plus footwork on my part.