Originally Posted by
kepeb30 
Ive tryed for years to moderate, change my drink
I did this too. When I stopped trying to do that is when I finally realized I was an alcoholic and in reality had not business trying to continue to do this. I was beating my head against a wall hoping a window would appear. It won't.
Quitting and learning a new way to live was the only way that worked for me.
I cannot control it, I never could control it so I stopped trying.