I firmly believe that I was genetically wired to be alcoholic, as are most of my relatives. The very first time I drank as a teenager I got blasted, sick, embarrassed etc. it's been a struggle ever since. I had several years sobriety before the stuff hit the fan. On the other hand, I also know a number of people who grew into alcoholism after heavy drinking, sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly.
My recovery depends on me and what I'm willing to do to stay sober. Sometimes it doesn't work.....