Why still angry............
I first thought about that story of Lois throwing the shoe at Bill, damn your old meetings....
For me, my partner (although not an A) came to an Al-anon meeting and all the members were clucking about it, I told my sponsor I was happy for him if it works for him but my happiness/excitement/gushing had nothing to do with him coming to a meeting....still my sponsor suggested I could try and express that with some love....rather than "bully for him, I am needless and independent"....
Maybe I'm trying to say that I don't invest my wellbeing in the recovery journey of my loved ones....When I feel unsure why I feel the way I do - the memories of the denial, the hidden agenda, the self-deception, the sense of powerlessness, the lack of recognition, the bitterness, the feeling of "is that it", the contempt, the resentment, the fear..........more will be revealed......Today I am trying to Live and Let Live, particularly, to Live...