The way I stopped my pill addiction was to flush what I had, and then tell my doctor and his nurse that I didn't need them anymore to end the source of getting more.
If I don't have the pills in my possession, I cannot take them. Once I told doctor's I don't need them, that I didn't want to take them ... I couldn't call them and ask for more.
I understand the fear of this new way of life, and going to meetings.
Try to take it easy.
I had a sponsor that told me we are big deal makers.
It's just a meeting.
