Guilt?
Oh my goodness yes!
The first morning when I woke up after the row that led me to decide I could not carry on being made to feel like this, my immediate thought was 'oh my go, what have I done? Everyone will hate me'
I still get the guilt now.
But then I remind myself that no-one has rung me to say sorry.
No-one has admitted that this does happen.
The gas lighting still continues even with the minimum contact I have.
When I have pointed out that their behaviour is gas lighting and it is cruel and mean and nasty, I sill have not had an apology.
I try to deal with the guilt logically, rather than let it take over and make me feel bad.
Still wishing you the best xx